Today I went to a motivational seminar and let me tell you what happen. I could not hear the guy at all due to the terrible acoustics in the place. So I wasn't able to understand what he was saying. So in the beginning I was depressed at what he was getting at. He said that saying negative things about yourself will make you weaker and positive words made you stronger. I agree with him on that and was still depressed. The next thing he did was break an arrow on a girls neck by having her overcome her fear and having commitment. Since I write fan fiction and want to write more stories the only problem I have is committing to them. I started to get a panic attack and was on the verge of crying because I want to make something of the world. I want to be remembered and not forgotten. After a while he made up get up and go talk to people we didn't know. So I went and the first two people came up and introduced themselves to me. Then i started to get more involved and I came up to two different people and introduced myself to them. The night went on and I became more involved in the groups and the other activities. I went back to my room but I started to get more involved and talked to some people I didn't know and I became happy.
I just want to say somethings about today. First thing is that I can suffer from bipolar disorder or have mood swings. I have not been tested but I believed that I can have it. The next thing is that I could have ADD or something relating to memory and focusing in general so I can not think coherent thoughts. Finally, don't worry about making an imprint in life. Just do want you want to do that makes you happy. Doing this blog makes me happy and more involved with a group. I am usually shy in real life but if we can find something in common then I know we can be best friends. I leave you with this quote from my favorite fanfiction story that deals with being remembered.
"If all I care about in life is the imprints I make in this world,
then the most I'll ever leave is a grave."
This is Yuki Harima signing of. So long and good night.
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